I got back from Tennessee Today , went up to look at a house. I really liked it but the guy who owns it owes 50K more than it appraised for. Yea the housing market sucks today. So now I have to think do I like the house that much. It sits right on a river , and older cabin but real nice. 10 acres of land to boot. A lot of thinking.
Anyway While in pigeon Forge , I went to a night club which I rarely do , was just bored. After arriving I am sitting at the bar, drinking my jack and coke , I begin to look around and I do not fit in. The crowd is half my age, not that I really care , I was not there to socialize with anyone., I don’t even really like people.
Don’t get me wrong when I go to a munch I am friendly , and I try to talk to everyone , just not into having a lot of friends. I have about 6 people I am close to , a couple in Orlando , and another couple down south, I consider them to be very good friends, then a couple of submissives I know , I am very close to, but not in a D’s way. I like things simple , no drama. More so if someone does not like me Fuckem. I guess in the lifestyle it runs about 50/50 .
Anyway So I am talking to the bartender , about the house I looked at , and I hear this voice , hey buy me a drink, I keep talking to james who now is loading my drinks up, and this voice buy me a drink. I turn around and look and I say go home to your Daddy. I continue my conversation with James , and a tap on my shoulder , are you serious ? This bitch just touched me , she does not know me from fucking adam and your going to touch me. So I turn and say Okay I was going to be polite, Please leave me the fuck alone. There you go polite.
She gets up and walks away, thank god , she is gone. Then James ask me Dude what is wrong with you. rapport with you lets don’t mess it up. He is like dude she is like 25 or 26 what are you doing ?
Well the truth is sex is the last thing on my mind , I spent most of the day with this relator , who was fucking trying to tell me what I wanted. Fuck me. Then I try to go fishing to relax, and I would pick a place where there is one guy who shows up who want to talk about Tnn football team.
Okay she wanted a drink, so I tell James to send her what ever she is drinking. James and I continue to talk , but I think he is only talking because of the tips I keep dropping , anyway he is not annoying .
The a tap on my shoulder, No fucking way this bitch touched me again, what the fuck is wrong with these people ? I know I sound like a total ass , but I am really not . Once you get to know me that is, I guess on first impressions I really suck., but I am just me, or maybe I seem cold because of all the ass’s Ive met through out my life.
So this girl is just rambling on like I am listening , and James is giving me these funny faces. She gets up and goes to the bathroom , James say dude that chick digs you. I said not she digs the drink I bought her.
I move to a booth thinking she will get the idea , um no she comes back and sits right next to me. She sticks out her hand and says I am Sandra , I say good for you. She ask what my name is , I am thinking why is this needed?
I say sandra what is your favorite band, she reply’s Sadus Hmmm who is another ? Exhorder, okay I am lost She ask me what my favorite band is I say Cinderella , that is an 80’s hair band for those of you who don’t know.. Shes says not a movie.
I say look sandra I am going to be upfront with you. You do not want any part of me , you do not want to know me , I am not nor will I ever be your type. Trust me when I say we have not one thing in common.
I suppose the average old man like me would jump all over her , really pretty, kinda of chunky but looks really good a very nice ass, if her shorts were any shorter her pussy lips would be showing.. Okay she is hot, very.
So she ask me why am I not your type ? Why don’t you like me ? I reply it is not that I don’t like you your very beautiful, your annoying but very beautiful.
So I say okay here is the deal sandra , I grab a handful of hair and I pull her close to me, and I whisper in her ear. I will put you on your hands and knees , tie your hands behind your back, put a ball gag in your mouth to shut you up, and fuck your ass so hard you will walk funny for a week. After I am done I will go shower, leaving you tied up, go outside and smoke a cig , come back in and face fuck your mouth until I cum and then hold your head and force you to swallow.Now if you want to go back to my hotel room we can, but I will be gone probably before you wake, and Ill leave cab fare on the dresser.
I let go of her hair and she just stares at me, I am reading my email now, waiting for a reply. About 5 minutes of total silence goes by , and she says I got to go, thanks for the drinks.
Okay I was honest and upfront , that is what we are all about right? Being truthful and upfront is what life is about. I am honest to a T , more so loyal.
Here is my problem , I cannot have what you call normal romantic sex unless I am really into you. I have tried a hundred times and it just does not work , I have met a couple of subs this yr who I was really really into , but things just didn’t work out, I have nothing bad to say about either.
I am not sure if something is wrong with me, or its just the sadist in me. Now I can see a sub who is into bondage, and enjoys being spanked , which is my specialty, and be somewhat rough, without bringing the sadist out , nothing long term, but I can.
Yes it is hard being in the lifestyle sometimes , more so being a sadist. It has been almost 3 years since my last long term relationship , in the last 6 months I have really started to look , ready to settle down.
The one mistake people make is settling for less , and I refuse too. Last I am happy right now for the time being , Everything always works out for the best , but being a sadist does make it hard at times to find a good partner, but life is good.