Where Do We Fit In ?

We were texting today Arianna and I , and the subject came up of how stupid some people are. I made the comment about how at work all anyone talked about was how much beer they drank the night before and how much they plan on drinking once they get off. These are men who make six figures not your every day McDonalds worker not that there is anything wrong with working at McDonalds. It does not matter what you do as long as it is an honest days work.

Here is the thing, besides Arianna I really do not have anyone I would call a real friend, I mean someone I would hang out with on a daily basis. There are people I like, and I even invited a co-worker over for dinner sometime, but to call someone a friend to me that is deep and it calls for a lot of trust. Trust is a huge issue with me.

At work I try to fit in, I laugh and joke but for the most it is a big front, not that most of the guys are not likeable because most are. When I first started there I was giving the cold shoulder because they felt like I was cutting into their pay, which is not really the truth, we each make out own pay. So everyday it is talking about beer and hoes, hoes and beer. Pretty boring.

In the lifestyle I know a lot of people , there are those I would like to call friends, but then the trust thing comes into play. for the most I am a very private man. Although at work I have shared some of my kink but no one really understands and I do not want to spend a day trying to explain. People hear what they want to hear, people see what they want to see, and people believe what they want to believe.

So in my world where does Vile fit in? It is as if I do not belong anyplace. Sure I have my own space, my own freedom, but at some point you have to share your space, if that makes any sense.

At a young age I knew I was different. Even in my teens I was into spanking, tying girls up, I really got off on face fucking, humiliation, and yes even control. Even then I did not fit in, it was like I was a guest in someones world, I was just there, people all around me but I just could not find that spot, that spot where I belonged.

So is it so bad to be different? Should we be someone else we are not just to please others so that we do fit in? I do know living a life that your not can be a total disaster , and the consequences are not good. On the other hand if we are to be who we are where do we fit in?

You go to the wing house or hooters with the guys, well it is not my thing, because I have no desire to sit around a table telling old war stories drinking beer, and listening to men talk about hoes

Lets face it if you went to work and announced who and what you were you would not be accepted, you would be the black sheep of the office. People would think your weird or think your some sicko. So really we spend our life hiding in the closet. I have shared some but I have not gone into great detail. Do I care if I am accepted? Nah I am who I am and I am very happy. Do I care if Joe likes me? I could really care less.

We, us , them, submissive, slaves, sadist, masochist , kinky we do not fit in we are just here, or there for a short period of time. Most are ashamed of who and what they are, because of being afraid of being an out cast, we need acceptance, we need people to like and approve of use. Why ? Because we do not fit in the world the way people think we should.

Those who do want to fit in want everything handed to them without having to put forth any effort, for example. A co-worker who is single, I invited him to go to a place in Orlando called the wood shed. His remark was fuck that I am not driving sixty miles to meet a woman, I would rather go home and watch porn and jack off. I am glad that is working out for him.  Now if I just showed up at his place with a woman and said here she is yours to fuck for the night, he would gladly take her, unless he found out he had to feed her or something.

I can say without a doubt I am happy. I have a good life. I have an awesome wife and slave, and as of right now I would not change anything. If I need a fishing buddy I have Arianna, if I have the need to have a drinking buddy again I have Arianna. If I have the need to play rough, fuck or just get my cock sucked yup I have Arianna.

So the question is do I really need to fit in? I think being happy and content means much more than trying to fit in with the Jones, or the Smiths.

So I know every morning when I leave for work, I know just where I fit in. That is my main and only focus.

Much Fucking Love to Everyone



8 Responses to “Where Do We Fit In ?”

  1. I’m glad there are other people who feel this way too. I thought, albeit conceitedly, that I was the only one and that I was simply weird, or not part of the group. Any group.
    A few years ago we had a new starter at work in my area (I work in IT) and he came out that he was bi-sexual (on the first day.) I was unsure how to handle his forthrightness but we actually became very good friends. Even though he left about 2 years back, we’ve kept in touch. Part of it was our interests are aligned when it comes to women, life, decisions, experiences, etc.
    I too wish I had a friend I could spend time with (or mostly would spend time with me.) But maybe I’ve watched one too many TV shows and often wonder if I have confused reality with a sit-com. I live in a different country to where I was born and grew up; all my school friends have long disappeared and even though FB keeps us in contact, it isn’t nearly the same as it use to be.
    We don’t even have a Hooters here in Australia, which sucks! But as you say, you have Arianna. Just feel a little bit sorry for the many of us who don’t even have that.
    PS. I shall continue to be jealous of you mate. 🙂

    • No need to be jealous. Just be who you are and never take a step back. Thank you for stopping by much love.

      • mistressofthenight Says:

        I feel sorry for what you write and for you and you should go and find yourself someone like Arianna if you think this will make you happier and who will fulfil your every need, but you will have to look very hard, not everyone accepts this type of lifestyle and you could lose a lot. Make a wise choice.

      • No need to feel sorry for me, I am in a very good place. I am not sure why such a comment would come into play.

        If you have read anything else you would know I am with my wife and slave Arianna, and very happy.

  2. mistressofthenight Says:

    Misunderstanding, the comment was not for you but the other person.

  3. Like some Vitamins, she swallow the dick like a Heineken

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