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My Interview Questions Are In. I will Be Truthful With My Answers

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So I posted yesterday that I would be willing to answer any question giving to me and answer it honestly.
What I am surprised with but somewhat grateful none of the questions were sexual.

I like doing these interviews , it opens up a whole new world to those we know and follow here on wordpress.

Some of the questions are very deep, so I will try to explain them the best I can….

Susie Jul 22, 8:41 pm

could you please, in depth, list and explain. 5 emotional, physical and spiritual ways Arianne lifts, enhances, & contributes to the quality of your life as a Man,Dom and Master.. By giving the gift of her submission and slaving.

I did say deep didn’t I.

When I first met Arianna I was in a bad place. I had been searching for over a year, for a long term partner, and I had all but giving up. I refused to move on my needs.
I had made plans to move out of the country and I had already obtained employment in the Philippines , my next choice would of been Thailand.

I was not what you would call depressed, I would say more of being lonely. That is the main reason I had decided on taking in a roommate, for the company. Although Kelly is an awesome person, she is like a sister to me, that still did not fill the void.

So when I first was introduced to Arianna, I felt something right away. I felt a connection, and that is something I need.
You can be the hottest bitch to walk the earth, but if I do not have that connection, I cannot fuck, it will not happen.

Spiritually, I am what I would call a spiritual man not religious I am far from religious and I feel I am in a much better place.
I am Buddhist , I have been studying Buddhism for about 15 years, and I believe it has helped me walk the path I walk today.

Arianna has giving me insight, it is like I can breath now, and knowing someone has my back. Physical , this is huge January 1st I quit smoking after 38 years 2 packs a day, because it was a need for Arianna. She does not smoke so it was not really fair to her that I did, and I smoked in the house. My house remember, so to speak. I quit because of my love for her, and me being somewhat older, I want to live a very long time, because she does give some awesome head.
Truth be known there are very few 24/7 M’s couples we are very rare, but there are very few D’s couples who live 24/7 and I am not sure why.

To have someone kneel before you and give you total control over their well being. There is truly no other feeling, it is a total rush, I could feel the blood flowing through my veins. To have such a prize possession giving to you. Truly there can be nothing greater.
It the relationship gives you drive, it makes you want to excel at everything you do, you need to be the best at what you do.
The truth is I want for nothing, my every want and need is anticipated , it is very seldom I even have to ask for anything.

I hope I answer your questions..

The next question was from an email.

Are the pictures you post of Arrianna? Did you always know you were a Master?

Sent from my iPhone No they are not, although the picture on my book cover is her, and she will probably be on all of the upcoming covers. I would never post any nudes of Arianna on here I respect her way to much..
As far as being a Master, I knew I was different at a very young age. At the age of 14 I liked to tie girls up, spank, and so on, it was the control factor I was missing.

thecheekyhousewife Jul 23, 2:13 am

Two questions:
1. Your pen name. You’ve shared how you got it so I get that it’s suppose to be playful or fun. But I’ve been a social worker for 15 years and have seen what vile is. You’re not it. Not even close. So my question is: Would you be open to changing your pen name?
2. You’re friggin hilarious and smart. You’ve compared yourself to Howard Stern. And he’s just gross. Would you ever consider a PG-13 edition of your writing or radio show? I think there are many teenage girls that would benefit from your writing. 🙂

My pen name as you call it has been with me for some 35 years, Gretchen thought I was Vile. That is what and who I am known by and not just here on wordpress.

I would be open to doing another blog, or maybe being a partner with someone under a different name, but to change my name, I could never do that, that would change who I am.

My radio station will be about the lifestyle, BDSM , it will be about my blog, the topics I have covered and I intend on having guest as well. Arianna is and has been very supportive when it comes to the radio station, it means as much to her and it does me.

I have a soft spot for children, today so many are left out in the cold, and they have to fend for themselves and it is really sad. When something goes wrong they take the blame.
If I could just snap my finger and make everything alright I would. If I had a huge farm I would take everyone in who needed help.

No I cannot change who I am..

And another

It seems that neediness is a very common trait among submissives. What is your advice for submissives who have been made to feel that their neediness is a bad thing?? How would you “draw out” a submissive who is closed off and not communicative?

As an experienced Dom, your style has changed over the years, but you have maintained your sense of self through it all, even through your own “training”. Do you think this is an attribute common among Dominants?

Vile, I’ve liked the interviews, they have given a lot of insight into how different people and relationships are. I hope you keep it up.

❤ mel.

It seems that neediness is a very common trait among submissives. What is your advice for submissives who have been made to feel that their neediness is a bad thing?? How would you "draw out" a submissive who is closed off and not communicative?

I have blogged about this before. This is the way you separate the real and from the fakes.
It is true many who are submissive are needy, I believe this is more true with those who are slaves.
Those who are not true, the fake Doms I have talked about, the married Doms or Daddy Doms I have talked about, they are the ones who tell subs that being needy is a bad thing, because then they have responsibility, they actually have to do something in the relationship instead of just getting their cock sucked.
Being needy is not a bad thing, so what if someone depends on you, at least you know you have someone you can depend on. I find someone who is needy to have strength, I believe they will open up more.If you except them for who they are as a person and a submissive, the communication is unlimited. In the end that is what we want communication.

Being needy is only a bad thing when the other does not care about you, and saying it is a bad thing should tell you one thing. They do not care about you.

As an experienced Dom, your style has changed over the years, but you have maintained your sense of self through it all, even through your own "training". Do you think this is an attribute common among Dominants?

This is an awesome question.

I believe Dominants tend to think things out more on an intellectual level than lets say someone who is vanilla. Did that make sense ?
Yes it is true for the most we do have to train ourselves, but as I have stated I myself have always had a mentor, someone I look up to and respect.
I go to him because he will not tell me what I want to hear. If I am fucking up he will tell me.

A good Dominant if he meets someone he cares about, and he believes a relationship is possible, then he should be able to meet ones needs, not really giving in, but bending a little, adapting is the answer I think.

Is it a trait, while all Dominants are not bad, I do not believe it to be common no.
Just like while at the local much and the topic came up about another Master stepping in if something happened to me. There were 12 Doms there and there was not one I would of trusted.

I find the love you have for Ariana to be truly special. To me, it transcends
Master and slave. When did you know she was the one? Was there a specific
moment?

xxoo Jane

Thank you for the email Jane.
The moment My eyes landed on her, actually when she extended her hand and we shook hands, I could feel the warmth. What I saw in her eyes told me everything. I new from the first words out of her mouth.
Thank you.

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The Beach where we were Married.

Vile

Arianna And I watched, My Five Wives, Well Almost All Of It

Posted in abuse, Argue, Arianna, bdsm, Buddhism, Christians, church, communication, Consensual, consequences, consistent, control, controlling, Discipline, Domestic Discipline, Dominant, Family Values, Gay, Living Poly, Living Triad, married, Married Polygamist, Master, My Five Wives, Open Minded, Patience, Polygamist, Protocol, relationships, Religion, Rules, Self-Discipline, sharing, Sister Slaves, Sister Wives, Structure, Submission, submissive, Triad on March 16, 2014 by thekinkyworldofvile

My Five Wives

While skipping through channels the other day I stumbled across this show called, My Five Wives

Brady who is married to five wives in Utah and has 24 children lives in two houses built side by side and a food bill of over 4.000 dollars a month seems to have it down for the most part.

The family were all Mormons at one time but have split off from the traditional Mormon religion and kinda added their own flavor.  While the family follows no real religion they all believe in Buddhism, all the women are pro-gay marriage and they all have a drink from time to time.

Each wife has their own bedroom and Brady takes turns spending the night with each one. One Birthdays each wife gets an extra night.

I have nothing against those who believe in polygamy or who live it, if it works for them then so be it.

If a family can live the Polygamy lifestyle and make it work, and not live off of government assistance then leave them be. We are in a new time where we allow gay couples to marry so why would be draw a line on how many people can live together.

While the family is not religious based they were all Mormons at one time, and they do live in a  Polygamist community , which they have been asked to leave because of the way they believe.

There are a few things that caught my eye in the short time we watched the show. The main thing was the jealousy between all of the wives as Brady took turns spending the night with each one. The second was no structure within the home, third there were no rules that had to be followed. Even though the show is not geared towards any BDSM lifestyle or Domestic Discipline the family did lack the fundamentals of any type of real structure and no protocol. I do believe Brady tries to communicate the best he can, but the main factor that keeps everything from working is the jealousy. There is no real communication with the wives, they all work toward the building of the home, but there is clearly no team work. They do have family outings which is good, yes all thirty of them, wow can you imagine going to McDonalds and having a bill for thirty.

So I wonder if others who live as Polygamist have the same issues , the same problems , if they have the same jealousy issues going on.

None of the wives on the show are Bi Sexual and that should never come into play anyway if you are looking to expand your family. I do not see the need in having partners and seeking out those who are bi as a need and that should never be part of the reason you are wanting to expand your family.

While I have done research on Domestic Discipline family’s I have not run into any who live as Polygamist. I have run into family’s who suffered from abuse and while a couple disagreed with me they mentioned all of the arguing that went on daily, and the fighting that went on daily so I was not able to connect them with living a Domestic Discipline lifestyle which for the most is religious based as well.

In the short time watching the show I was able to pin point where the problems came from. First there was no Alpha female, if there was she was not willing to step up to the plate. I can see where they all were wanting to be treated equal but in a live in situation like that I see no way that would work.

There was zero structure everyone did their own thing, having no structure causes arguing. There were no house rules again having no rules causes arguing.  Last but not least there were no consequences for any actions. Although he did try and communicate with everyone it was clear he was not getting through to them.

I can see where such a lifestyle could work if the male is in full control, and I can also see where it can fail. Those who live the polygamy lifestyle keep it such a secret I do not believe there is any hard statistics that shows if it works more than it fails.

I also believe a man can stretch his self way to thin and not being able to maintain any type of control, and it is clear when one of the wives stood toe to toe and argued with him he clearly had no control.

When Arianna and I were talking about the possibility of adding another, there would of been a plan in place. There would of been house rules to follow, there has to be structure, there has to be protocols , and most of all there has to be an alpha female, and the other has to know the alpha is just that and will always be the alpha. So a third would have to be okay being the third, and know that will never change.

I was reading some of the comments about the TV show My Five Wives, and there was not one good one, well until I commented. These people who were complaining are the same ones you see as customers in the TV show Hardcore Pawn, or guest on the Jerry Springer show, These are the ones talking about how others live their lives.

You have people protesting Gay Marriage if your so against it then don’t marry someone who is gay, BOOM problem solved. If you judge someone for having more than one wife, then just marry one, problem solved.

What is really stupid is you spend and hour watching a TV show about Polygamist then you spend the next day complaining about it. Wow fucking really. Truth be known your the fucking moron for wasting an hour of your life watching something you hate so much.

Let people be who they want and need to be. A friend at work was talking about a family he was working with they were Mexican, he was saying that two family’s lived in a two bedroom apartment, and how crazy they were. Well it is not really crazy, they make it work, who cares how they live.

If your going to live, live the dream, but don’t waste your time talking about how others live, when your own backyard is fucked up….

By the way I can talk, my backyard is clean.

Image Just how many is to many? How many can you keep under your control.

Vile

Domestic discipline. It is Okay to abuse your wife

Posted in abuse, Arianna, bdsm, Breaking Rules, Buddhism, Christians, church, communication, Consensual, control, controlling, Discipline, Domestic Abuse, Domestic Discipline, Domestic discipline. It is Okay to abuse your wife, Dominants, Fear, Master, non-consensual, punish, Punishment, Religion, slave, Spanking, submissive on July 13, 2013 by thekinkyworldofvile

Ephesians 5:22–24

Wives and Husbands

22 Wives,submit to your own husbands,as to the Lord. For the husband is the head of the wife even as Christ is the head of the church, his body, and is himself its Savior. Now as the church submits to Christ, so also wives should submit in everything to their husbands

1 Timothy 2:12

12 I do not permit a woman to teach or to exercise authority over a man; rather, she is to remain quiet.

In the world or most religions and Domestic Discipline relationships which is based on religion  the above is carried to the extreme.

The women are raised in such an environment and they do not know any better. The men are raised the same and they truly believe what they have experienced and how they run their household is truly Okay.

In most cases the abuse I believe goes way beyond verbal abuse as well as mental abuse. I am sure at times it gets very physical.

I have had several write me in the past who lived in a DD household and experienced the same, so I am just not rambling here. Since this is a small community even three or four women would bring the numbers up to a high percentage.

Domestic discipline is the practice between two consenting life partners in which the head of the household (HoH) takes he necessary measures to achieve a healthy relationship dynamic; the necessary measure to create a healthy home environmental and the necessary measures to protect all members of the family from dangerous or detrimental outcomes by punishing the contributing, and thus unwanted, behaviors for the greater good of the family.

In some cases the above may be true as far as the consenting part, but for the most the lifestyle is handed down from generation to generation. Most of the time the women marry from within the church, or encouraged to date and marry from within. If you are raised in such a way, once you marry you carry certain traits with you, and unfortunately abuse is some of the traits. If you are raised in a home where the wife is degraded and abused on a regular basis, the male son will most likely carry these habits with him. The female knows no different, and when it happens she is probably shocked at that moment, but really has no one to turn to.

People can get so wrapped up in religion they really lose reality, common sense goes right out the window. In their mind there is nothing wrong with knocking your partner to the ground and yelling because dinner is not finished.

http://marriage.about.com/cs/domesticviolence/a/domesticdisc.htm

Those who support the domestic discipline life style believe:

Domestic discipline comes from the bible.

Domestic discipline is not BDSM.

Domestic discipline is non-erotic.

Domestic discipline is an essential part of their relationship.

Domestic discipline is a physical correction from one who truly cares.

Domestic discipline is responsible authority.

Domestic discipline is appropriate punishment.

Domestic discipline requires that there must be total…consent from both parties.

Research on domestic discipline has revealed:

Domestic discipline is based on misinterpretations of the bible. Here is a very good example, if you pick a scripture out of the bible and you take it to different religions the interpretation will be different in each case. When a pastor or preacher reads from the bible he is giving his own Interpretation. Just as a Dominant in a D’s relationship .

Domestic discipline is BDSM.

Domestic discipline is sexually erotic. I believe this to be true from my stand point I do know when I bend Arianna over and I spank during play I get harder than a rock.

Physical correction is not life-giving to relationships.

Spanking a wife as a means of correction or punishment is a control issue and is potentially abusive.

Marriage calls a couple to mutuality, not to punish one another.

http://marriage.about.com/cs/domesticviolence/a/domesticdisc_3.htm

Some believe women want or agree to domestic discipline style of punishment because of guilt over past sexual behavior or because they believe that God through the scriptures has deemed that this is the proper role of a husband.

Perhaps these women have poor self images. Some women find spanking sexually exciting.

The Issue of Domestic Violence Within the Domestic Discipline Lifestyle

The number of battered women in the United States annually is between 2 and 4 million. It is estimated that at least 25% to 30% of American women are at risk of domestic violence during their lifetime.

Such abuse is also devastating to their children who often feel helplessness and blame along with increased anxieties, more aggressiveness, and behaviorial problems.

When there is an attack on a person’s self esteem or physical body, or when one partner becomes dominant in the relationship, the marriage is at risk for divorce.

Using words like punishment when relating to a spouse sets a couple up to become “feet and a doormat.”

The wife turns into a doormat which is only good for wiping feet on. These marriages are doomed to have relationship problems. Some day she will have had enough.

Seek Counseling

If you are in a domestic discipline marriage please seek counseling so that you can make an informed, rational decision about your marriage relationship.

BDSM is not based on a religion, nor has it ever been. I will say there are those Dominants or Master who take things to far. Those are ego driven men who do not have a clue.

BDSM the Dom is in control, he is not controlling, Okay in most cases. The relationship is consensual on both parties, it is not to say that it cannot be consensual in a DD relationship I would imagine there are cases where it is.

In most aspects BDSM is erotic, fulfilling. Those who are submissive or slaves generally have a low self esteem. So we as Dominants help rebuild this is done through positive reinforcement.

I would think that most women in a DD relationship would have a very low self esteem from what I have read there is nothing positive about a DD relationship. To think that a church would back such behavior is beyond me.

While I am Buddhist , and I try to live as such I am not as active as I would like to be. I can say however I do implement much of my beliefs into my relationship. Such as the ability to stay calm and think things out clearly.  To respect myself and others, treat others as I would like to be treated. While I do pray daily it is never for me, it is for my wife , friends and family.

I believe a man should be in control. There is no reason for a man to hit a woman out of anger. How can a man beat his wife, and an hour later expect her to lay on her back. I wonder what the male is thinking about while he is banging her looking down at her black eye, or busted lip.

I learned long ago you do not break your toy. If you break you cannot play with for sometime.

In some cases there are those women who choose to live in a DD relationship and marriage. In BDSM it is a consensual agreement between two adults, no one is forced, if the submissive or slave finds they are being abuse, they simply pack up and leave. In a DD marriage it is not that easy when children are involved and more so when there is a church involved.

I wonder how people can look down on a M’s relationship when it is consensual, and look up to a DD relationship when in most cases it is not consensual.

Take care of your woman, be it vanilla, submissive or slave. Your woman should always come first no matter what. There is not an instance when your partner should come before anyone or anything else.

With out your wife, submissive or slave who are we? what are we?

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Vile

Religion And BDSM

Posted in abuse, bdsm, BDSM Communitys, Bdsm events, Buddhism, Christians, church, Conversation, Discipline, Domestic Abuse, Domestic Discipline, Dominants, Friends, greed, Master, Masters, munchs, Religion, slave, submissive on February 7, 2013 by thekinkyworldofvile

So last Friday Arianna and I went to the Mast munch.  Masters And Slaves Together. The topic was how do you incorporate your religion with the lifestyle.

First of all I did not think this was a subject that should of come up at a munch. Two things should never come up, religion and politics. It is not to say that some in the lifestyle does not incorporate some of there religious beliefs into their lifestyle, but to share something so personal in front of a group of people should not of been allowed. I did voice my opinion prior to the munch, but the moderator would not change the topic.

So okay I was already in a sideways mood before arriving at the hostess home, then having to meet new people which I truly hate. To make things worse Arianna and I rode with the moderator. Do not get me wrong we are good friends, we just have huge differences on how a house should be ran.

My answer was Buddhism has helped me in many ways. One my temper although this past month it has been pushed. I think things out more clearly now, I am more in control, of not only myself but my surroundings.

I am not a religious man, I would tend to think I am more spiritual. I am by the book, I take no short cuts, which means no consequences, only choices.

I do not believe in organized religion, once organized it becomes evil, and corrupt. It becomes about money. Just turn your TV on Sunday morning. Religion is based on fear and fear alone. Hence if you are not saved you will burn in hell. Being human the one thing we fear is fear itself. Or the fear of loss.

When you look at the religious side of Domestic Discipline , most is based on abuse and nothing more. Many of these women in such a relationship are beaten down on a daily basis, more verbal than physical. This lifestyle is the only thing the women know. Most have been raised in a family based on DD, so the male follows in the fathers footsteps.

So if you are religious do you feel guilty? Why should you? Does your religion prevent you from being the person you need to be? If you answered yes to any of the above, it is based on fear.

Arianna and I will never attend another munch with such a topic. It has no place in my lifestyle or hers.

I have not been as active in my beliefs as I should be but that is going to change here real soon, and I know Arianna is excited about attending with me.

Now on the other hand, if Arianna felt she had the need to go to church, while I may not agree with her, I would support her and I would attend with her. Going would not change who I am. She is my number one concern , her needs are what matters.

So while at the munch, I stepped outside twice, I do smoke , okay so I have one bad habit, but that will soon be gone. Arianna does not say anything even though I know she does not approve. So while outside I am followed by a Dom I have never met before, and no sooner than I lite up he begins telling me his life story. I am just standing there looking at him, and I am thinking really.

I suppose one of my main faults are, I do not like people, I have a few I call friends, but for the most I stay to myself. People are different today. It is not about friendship it is about what they can get, or trouble they can stir up.

So this Dom I have never met, is asking for my email, my fetlife account, and my phone number, he wants us to start hanging out. I am thinking WOW.  So I finely say to him, look I am not sure why you feel you want to share your life story with me, but to tell you the truth, I could really care less.

A couple of times during the munch things started to get kinda heated up, to the point I thought an argument was going to break out. This is why a different topic should of been discussed.

Last, I do not believe a man or woman should have to go to a building to worship. Nor do I believe that you should have to go through a second party, when requesting one to pray for you, or maybe confess.

Just my thoughts.

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Vile

How Buddhism has impacted my Life

Posted in bdsm, Buddhism, Mahāyāna, Zen on October 19, 2012 by thekinkyworldofvile

Buddhism in Vietnam (called đạo Phật) as practiced by the ethnic Vietnamese is mainly of the Mahāyāna tradition.[1] Buddhism came to Vietnam as early as the 2nd century CE through the North from Central Asia and via Southern routes from India.[2] Vietnamese Buddhism has had a symbiotic relationship with Taoism, Chinese spirituality, and the indigenous Vietnamese religion.[3]

The overall doctrinal position of Vietnamese Buddhism is the inclusive system of Tiantai, with the higher metaphysics informed by the Huayan tradition; however, the orientation of Vietnamese Buddhism is syncretic without making such distinctions.[6] Therefore, modern practice of Vietnamese Buddhism can be very eclectic, including elements from Zen, Pure Land, Tiantai, and popular practices from Esoteric Buddhism.[6] According to Charles Prebish, many English language sources contain misconceptions regarding the variety of doctrines and practices in traditional Vietnamese Buddhism:[15

I have stated before I am against organized religion, many reasons. One today religion is a pure money making machine. Just look at some of the great teachers of religion.Jerry Falwell, Jim and Tammy Baker, Benny Hinn, Ernest Angley, Oral Roberts, Pat Robertson, just to name a few. If I did not mention someone it is because I have great respect for them, such as Billy Graham.

I had mentioned earlier that I was connected with an Inter tribal group. Which is a mixture of native Americans who are not card holders from any specific tribe. Shortly after my departure , I ran into a Vietnamese woman at a local grocery store. I was loading my bags in the car and she walked up to me and said I love you. Wow very cool I dig Asian chicks anyway. Excuse me, she said it again I love you, well I love you as well so we are even. Then she made the statement you look sad. I said Dam I just thought I was pissed off. Sad no pissed off yes.

So we talked for a few minutes, and she gave me her name and address, told me to call her when I would be able to come over to her place on a Saturday night.

I arrived about 5.30 pm that Saturday, and a small group of about 35 people were there, when I walked through the gate I felt like Elvis, everyone greeted me.

At that point and time I felt like I need something spiritual, and uplift, I needed to find or reinvent myself. I had just left an awesome group of people, My Divorce was finished, I had just met Bea.

So we all walked in the house I was instructed to take my shoes off, we all entered a huge room. To the north wall was a big statue of Buddha. We all sat with our legs crossed, and a young girl from Vietnam  came and sat next to me, to help me with the chant. The chant lasted a good half hour. Then the teaching began, this went on for another hour and a half. I am thinking something is missing, wait no one is passing around a plate.no one is asking for money.

I was getting ready to leave, I was sitting on my Harley, and the young girl came running up, I got off, and she gave me a hug, and invited me back again, she took both of my hands, and I felt like this warmth run up both arms, the most incredible feeling I had ever felt..

I do not look at Buddhism as a religion. I look at it as a way of life, most as I do incorporate Zen which is a form of meditation, self-contemplation, and intuition rather than through faith and devotion. It sounds really complicated but it is really not.

Before hand I had no anger issues, well I will take that back. If you were not my submissive, and you pissed me off, you would feel the earth shake.

Although there is a Temple in Orlando, I stayed with a small group of people, every weekend, we went to a different house. We all brought a dish, and had a feat afterwards. No one ever asking for money. I did start to send in donations to the temple in orlando, sometimes 10% sometimes less , sometimes more, and sometimes nothing. It was on my terms. No pressure.

Buddhism has helped me in many ways. I now look at life different, I see more good, even with people I do not care for, I always look for the good.

The Meditation can take me places that are unreal, at times it can feel like you are leaving your body. I feel very relaxed and calm, afterwards.

I feel like I can read people better, no anger. Do not take me wrong, I still get upset, but I speak in a very calm manner. In the last year I have started taking tai chi, which to me is another form of meditation, deep thought, and breathing.

If I am with someone, I do not push my beliefs on anyone. I do not try to force anyone to see my way. I will talk and speak about the good, but it is their choice.

Now within the lifestyle, I have found that some of the things I have learned, I can use to my advantage. I am now much calmer when I speak, I have found this makes communication, much better, and it tends to make one really listen, because they feel like they will miss something, if they Don’t .

I try to meditate at least twice a day, this helps me relax, help my body relax. I am now starting to sleep a little better, not a full eight hours, but Now I do dream, were as before I did not.

The first test was when a Submissive was living with me early last year, she told me she had been messing around with her ex. I could not believe how calm I was. As a matter of fact it upset her more than it did me, because she was not sure how to take me. I just simply said you need to call your mother, and have her come and get you. That was the end of it.Once she was gone, I did not feel lonely or upset. A sigh of relief.

Just something else I wanted to share..

Vile