It has really been a busy three weeks, and believe it or not I do get stressed.
A couple of days ago I was talking to Arianna and I was explaining how stressed I was, and she said she could not tell.
When I get stressed my mind travels a thousand miles and hour, and I have to separate everything so I can keep things straight. I tend to get real quite and I may seem somewhat distant, that is just me clearing everything out. I suppose it is kinda like defragging your computer.
I will tell you what it is like in my mind. I am in a very deep hole and it is dark, there are small steps in the hole but being dark you have to feel around to find the steps. The steps are not in line so you have to feel all around to find them.. Once your able to see a little light, you know your on the right track. Well!!! I am about to pull myself out and what a relief it is.
If you set your mind to something and you stay on your game, you can do anything , as long as you stay on track and stay true to yourself.
So I love these interviews , it gives us an inside peak into someone’s life. Although everyone here blogs we may find something they have not touched on. This also gives a personal side of someone…
So today we have Cinnamon , also known as cinnamon sparkles, who I have known for sometime although we have never met in person you just never know what life may bring us….
Here is her link as well so lets enjoy…
1. So lets get started here. How long have you been in the lifestyle as you know this can happen before you even know the name of lets say Submissive, Slave or Baby Girl? When did you first notice you had such feelings?
My very first serious boyfriend ( early twenties- late bloomer ) was a D/s relationship without the labels. He led, I followed. He used to comment that he loved how submissive I was, but at the time I didn’t really understand what that meant. I just knew he was happy and that was enough.
So, I guess it’s always been who I am and my relationships. Now as far as realizing it was an actual label and lifestyle…that was in the last three years only.
2. What if any mistakes did you make once you tried to enter the lifestyle ?
Frenzy, Frenzy, Frenzy. I had to know.. I had to try. I was all in and unaware of the dangers. I didn’t take the time to educate myself properly. I had no mentor.
I didn’t listen to my instinct. HUGE mistake
I put D/s and kink ahead of building the vanilla aspects of a relationship first and THEN adding to it.
3. What have you done to correct the mistakes you made during your travels?
I learned to listen to my instinct. If a voice says something feels wrong, it is best to listen to it. If I think someone doesn’t have my best interests at heart, they don’t.
Also, I am not afraid to ask questions…. challenge people… research them. If someone wants to be my Dom, they should have no problem giving me whatever I need to be comfortable.
I have relationships with fellow submissives and dominants that I can trust.
Even my blog, and the blogging community has been a huge help in my personal growth… in almost every area of my life.
4. You speak about being a Little, why don’t you fill everyone in on what a little is.
A little is someone who even as an adult, retains a child like aspect(s) of themselves. I’m 45 years old, but I have several children’s books in my home and no children. I have several rubber duckies. I have a Hello Kitty watch… notebook…stickers… most everyone knows I am obsessed with things that sparkle. 🙂
I like a Dominant man who takes care of me. This in NO WAY means that I don’t absolutely do everything in my power to take care of him… because I am a big pleaser. It just means that I like things like being put to bed, bathed, hair brushed, read to… etc…
I don’t do age play. I don’t pretend. This just happens to be part of who I am. A really big part.
5. We have all read your blog or most have, what is your current relationship status?
I am in a monogamous relationship with a man that I am over the moon crazy about. We are still 99% vanilla, and building a relationship before trying to incorporate D/s. That said, his natural personality and desires are those of a Daddy.
Charming is the man I’ve waited my whole life to meet.
6. We are all different when it comes to the lifestyle, do you wear a collar, if not what is the reason?
I do not wear a collar, but I would like to one day. However– I believe that equals a wedding ring, and my personal desire is to get both at the same time.
Also, being a babygirl, it needs to be super girlie and pretty 🙂
7. Do you as a little have rules to follow?
As we are not at that point in my current relationship, I will give you examples of some rules I have had previously….
Bedtime- by 9 pm weekdays and 12 pm weekends
Must text anytime leaving or arriving from somewhere so they know where I am at all times and safe
Yes Sir Daddy or No Sir Daddy
Never put myself down
For me, rules and structure make me feel safe and loved. Discipline makes me feel loved. If my man does not care enough to give me rules and discipline around them, I can’t believe they love me.
8. Are you active in the local community if not why? Have you ever attended a munch or an event?
I am not active in the community. I am actually very shy in real life. I don’t like drawing attention to myself.
I did go to a munch once, and it was painful but only for that reason. Everyone was very nice and it was held in a very vanilla venue…. perhaps if I went with a Daddy I might be more comfortable.
9. How do you see yourself let say in five years from now?
I don’t know but I love the direction that my life is going in.
My fairy tale dream- to be married again. Have a family, even if it be just us two… or maybe his kids… I’d love to have a house.. the white picket fence and a special playroom for us grownups.
If I’m really dreaming, I don’t have to work. 🙂
10. What are a few of the kinks you enjoy?
I am a huge spanko. Huge. Obsessed
I also love bondage.
Other than that, can I count BJs as a kink? Cause that’s my favorite 🙂
Thanks so much Vile for including me in your interview lineup. I’m truly honored and hope that I don’t disappoint 🙂
This was just awesome as a matter of fact it was incredible.
As usual Vile