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Every Dominant Trains Different

Posted in Arianna, bdsm, BDSM Communitys, Dominant, Master, Protocols, Rules, training your slave, Training your ssubmissive with tags , , , , , , , on December 19, 2014 by thekinkyworldofvile

There is not one Dominant out there who is the same. We all come from different parts of the world , we were all raised different, we all have different back grounds , and our way of thinking is different.

It was not long ago most Dominant in the community were very close , but over the years thing have changed , we have grown apart the trust is no longer there and it seems everyone is out for their selves.

I am wrong you are wrong , I don’t know what I am doing you don’t know what your doing. If you want your relationship to survive you need to read this book , that book. Wow.

Just like my blog is my opinion so is what you read. What you read is what has worked for someone else , but it does not mean it will work for you, and why is that ?

There is not one book in the world that can describe how a woman thinks. There is not one book in the world that can tell you why someone is submissive or a slave. There is not one book in the world that has a training program that will fit every submissive or slave in the world. The needs in any relationship are different. You can learn what works for others and you may be able to take bits and pieces but your going to have to find that balance that works for both of you.

What works for Master Billy bob and Slave Sarah Jo , will probably not work for someone else. You could however take bits from them and incorporate into your relationship.

It would be wrong of me to say well Master Billy Bob does not have a clue about training a slave. That statement is not correct , and it is so far from the truth it is not funny.

I know nothing about Slave Sarah Jo’s needs , I have no idea what her personality is like , I have no idea what she needs out of the lifestyle. It would be the same with Master Billy Bob , I do not know what his needs are when it comes to an M’s relationship.

A Dominant or Master has their own traits , they have their mind set as far as the type of submissive or slave they are looking for. The same goes with slave Sarah Jo she had the type of mater in mind, the type of Master she needed.

Books can be a good learning source and interesting at times. The book Fifty shades of grey is flying off the shelf , I am sure the movie will do good , but it only shows one side of the lifestyle and that is the kink.

Then you watch the Movie The Secretary , it does show the kink , but it also shows the building of a relationship , rules and building self esteem. It also showed how the needed structure would prevent one from cutting herself.

So fifty shades  grey is really 9 1/2 week with more kink and nothing more.

Here is another thing some meet a Dominant and he will say I want to train you. He then hands out a few rules and that is the end. That is the last thing you hear about training. Your thinking in your mind WOW there has to be more to this , but your afraid to speak up in fear of rocking the boat. If your happy and things are going well then leave it be.

When entering a relationship and the Dominant brings up training , you should ask what his training involves. How is his training going to benefit you?  What are you going to get out of it ? What are some of his goals?

Every Slave is different , every submissive is different , their needs are different , their kinks , their mental stability is different. Everything is different not one is the same , the depth of submission is different.

Some only submit in the bedroom , some like a few rules and task, some like no rules , while some need to give over 100% control.

No one can tell you that your Dominant or Master is doing wrong because they have no idea what your relationship is like.

Everything I share is my opinion and nothing more. What I share is my past present and my plans for the future. What I share works for my relationship, but you can take bits and pieces of what I share and maybe use a little here and there.

In the end we all want the same thing, a Stable and secure home with the one we love.

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When Your Life Self Destruct’s

Posted in @vile62 on Twitter, abuse, anti depression medication, Arianna, bdsm, BDSM Mentor, Bipolar, communication, Consensual, consequences, Consistency, control, Depression, Dominants, emotional, Emotions, Master, Master And Slave, Self-Discipline, slave, Submission, submissive, Vile Woods on FaceBook on December 10, 2014 by thekinkyworldofvile

Things get crazy at times , life gets crazy , work and even family. Then at times it seems friends or co-workers want to dump their life in your lap hoping you can fix what ever is wrong.

I talk about Depression a lot , and that is because it seems to play a huge role within our lifestyle.
While it is true there are those who do not suffer from depression or anything , I do believe the numbers are pretty high.

The good news is with the right care , the proper medication , and the right partner in the lifestyle or not , things can and will flow pretty smoothly.

When things go wrong or not as planned this is when things get complicated , but there is really no need for it.
It seems when things get a little crazy the thoughts get a little crazy and here comes the confusion.

Arianna does suffer from depression and we have been pretty lucky the last 2 years or so things have continued to have a upward swing.

It is not to say things do not get a little crazy because they do, but what ever is going on is controlled and controlled very quickly.

When I first met Arianna I went to a few of her Doctor appointments hoping to speak with her. The Doctor declined which I found kinda weird but anyway it was time for me to step in.
I found Arianna a new Doctor someone who would talk to me, we changed up the medication a little and WHAM as good as new.
There is always room for improvement but if you can find stable ground you pretty much just chill.

A couple of months ago I lost a friend in the lifestyle due to depression and she was only 23. She had spent a long time being abused and I am sure she felt like she had no one to turn to.

23 Years old she had a whole life ahead of her and there is no telling what she could of accomplished in her lifetime.

You can have friends and still feel like you have no one to talk to. You can be in a room full of people and feel like there is no one to talk to.

You can become depressed in a split second and you do not know what put you in that frame of mind. You ride it out and in a day or so your back to normal.

The health issues I have talked about over the past few years is a topic that should come up when you first meet someone. I have a list in my mind a mile long and at the end of the conversation I have much to think about before I want to commit to a relationship as I did with Arianna.
Arianna was not a split second decision , entering a relationship was something I had to give a great deal of thought.

I myself get into down and out moods from time to time, I get quiet and I am just thinking and really thinking about nothing, and it does pass.
I am not on any type of medications nor do I need to be. As of right now I am in a good place and it will continue to get better.

Depression can be bad , it can be really bad and at times people take the easy way out. That is not always the answer because I am a firm believer anything can be fixed and I do mean anything….

Knowing someone is truly interested in you and not just your cock sucking skills makes a world of difference.
Knowing that someone is working towards putting you back on the right track makes a world of difference.
Someone stepping in and taking up the slack makes a world of difference.
Someone who is willing to communicate with you , makes a world of difference, someone who cares about your thoughts and needs makes a world of difference.

There are a lot of factors that come into play when your in a relationship and not just a D’s or M’s relationship. The structure , the drama , the consistency , and helping you reach your goals.
Positive reinforcement

Being depressed does not mean you are broken , it just means you need a little more support. There is nothing wrong with that.

There is only one thing you need to get straight in your life before entering a relationship , and that would be your life.
It is not fair to someone to enter a relationship and you just dump your baggage in the living room and say hey fix it..
It is not fair to dump everything on someone and expect someone else to fix something you fucked up

If your in that depression mode , you should not even being considering entering a relationship , again it is not fair. At this point and time your problems are not for someone to fix, you have to fix yourself.

Being open and upfront about your depression and the problems is causes should be brought into the conversation when meeting.
This will give the Dominant time to decide if this is a path he wishes to walk or just tell you its not for him.

Looking for a relationship is one thing but looking for someone to rescue you in much different.
The rescue Dominant and there are a lot of them out there , but those relationships are very short lived because many bite off more than they can chew.

Before entering a relationship come up with a check list, and check things off one at a time until the list is completed.

Depression if your meds are not working then maybe your due a change or even another Doctor. Because if your on the wrong medication nothing is going to help.
Most Doctors today just want to push pills instead of getting to the root of the problem.

Always have someone you can talk to a close friend we all need one of those. We all need someone we can confide it.
That is very important and will help you stay a float when times are bad.

The submissive should have a mentor in the lifestyle a female mentor.
Most Doms who want to mentor subs or slaves are just out for ass.
A female mentor is going to understand you on much more deeper levels , you will also want to share more.
A female mentor has no motive when it comes to helping you.

Medication , you can be on the right medication but if your with someone who is just toying with your mind, it will no doubt put you in a bad place.
You want to make sure the one your with has your best interest in mind. If your just being used they are not going to care what state of mind your in, once you become a liability to them , your going to get dumped anyway.

To keep things on a smooth tract and it is possible , you need to have certain things in place, again things such as structure , rules , you need daily routines , and none of these things mentioned are hard it is just finding someone who is willing to devote the time that is needed..

You can prevent any of the above if you just sit down and think things out, and talk to someone.

Life is meant to be good.

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Vile

Trust And BDSM

Posted in 55 Gallon Aquarium, 60 Gallon Aquarium, abuse, Arianna, bdsm, BDSM Safety, Commit, commitment, communication, compatibility, consequences, Consistency, consistent, control, Dominants, Master, Master And Slave, Patience, Safe and Sane, Security, slave, Submission, submissive, submit, Total Submission with tags , , , , , , , , , , on December 4, 2014 by thekinkyworldofvile

Trust is a huge need in our lifestyle. Without trust you cannot fully submit , you can submit but not fully. Your body and actions can submit but your mind cannot. If your mind cannot submit there is noway of knowing what the feeling is or what the meaning of submission is.

I have an awesome hobby and that is my awesome freshwater planted aquariums. I have a 60 Gallon aquarium and a 55 Gallon that Arianna set up for me.

In my 60 gallon I have a few very unique fish. Two Baby Whales an Elephant Nose , and my Black Ghost Knife.
The fish are not only unique but they are not for the novice Aquarist , which is a mistake I made first starting out , but it turned out I was pretty lucky, because all are going on a year now and growing a becoming more active.

All of the fish are very docile so I have to be careful what i add to the tank.

It was some 6 months those 4 fish would hide and only come out for feeding then back to hiding, so for some time they were not that enjoyable….

The last month has there has been so many changes , now the 4 of them are out all day.

The other day I called Arianna into the living room , and I put my hand in the tank near the top and the two Baby Whales and the Elephant nose came to the top and they allowed me to touch them.

Then again this am I called Arianna in and I had a cube of blood worms in my hand and all 4 and my two clown Loaches were eating from my hand, which is really cool to watch.

As far as freshwater fish got all 4 of those fish are highly intelligent and can even be trained.

I have planted the aquariums with all live plants , the plants help keep the water in check but they also add beauty to the tank.
What I felt was important was , I wanted to try and duplicate their environment , with plants , rocks , and driftwood.

The plants , rocks and driftwood also provide a secure place for them to hide. It has a very natural setting and really makes them feel at home.

In the process I also purchased what are called schooling fish , white clouds, some neon tetras and a few others.
The first week they are stuck together and it really looked awesome and it was really relaxing to just sit back and watch them move through the water.

One night I was sitting and just watching, I had turned off the lights in the living room so I could truly enjoy the view , and I noticed something really odd.

As I sat there and watched none of the fish were schooling they were all doing there own thing. Swimming around moving in and out of the plants and driftwood.
Sitting there and looking I was somewhat confused , and I thought something was wrong.

So I jump on Google , which is my second best friend , and started doing research , not really finding anything , I called someone I know who owns a local pet store , mostly fish and I was telling him what was going on.
After a few seconds of silence he started talking. You my friend have the perfect environment , you have created a home.
What is more important they feel safe , they do not feel threatened in anyway and the only reason fish school is so they can protect each other.

That is the same with my 4 buddy’s allowing me to pet them they trust me. That is the same reason they no longer hide they trust me and they trust their environment.

The same was when I sat up my 55 Gallon this is before I called my friend.
Arianna and went to a pet store and I purchased white clouds and neons because the tank was in my office and it would be relaxing to watch during work.
A week into adding the fish I turned and looked and I was like what the fuck? There was not one fish that was schooling , that is when I made the call.

Okay so what am I getting at ? Where am I going with this ? What is the point in me talking about my hobby ?

In our lifestyle trust is everything , because without trust you have nothing. If you do not have trust your relationship cannot grow and you will never reach the full potential of your submission. Meaning you will lose out on a lot, you will not see yourself grow inside or out.

In order to reach that level of trust you have to have honest and open communication.
Once you have gained the level of trust , and the Dominant has earned your trust your travel them begins.
You will have the need to submit and not just the want. You will have the need to serve and you will have the need to grow.

That is what you want out of a relationship , that is what you need out of the relationship.

I have said many times communication is the key and the base of the relationship , but Trust also plays a major factor in your growth.

Trust knowing the one you are following is going to lead you down the right path. Trust knowing the one your with is going to respect your limits. Trust is knowing you will not be hurt mentally or physically.
Trust is knowing your number one and will remain number one.

Arianna and I went out and I was looking for a new ecig battery ,and during the conversation I started asking questions about the liquid he was selling.
I was truly interested in one of the batteries he had , then he opened his mouth and started lying to me, and I knew it , but I just stood there listening to what he had to say.
At the end of the conversation I thanked him for his time and I left without buying anything.

I have a one strike process , not the standard three you get while playing baseball.
The problem with giving three strikes you usually end up giving another then another, and another.

If a man hits you once , he will do it again , and again. If he calls you a stupid whore out of anger he will do it again and again. If he cheats on you then yes he will do it again and again.

I have a statement I live by. An angry mans words is a calm mans thoughts. so if he gets angry and starts yelling and belts out you stupid whore , those words did not just come to mind , he has thought of those words before.

You can love and not trust , you love because you need the companionship , you also the security. You can love well sorta love and not enjoy being with that one.

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Vile

Lets Talk About BDSM

Posted in 50 Shades Of Grey, abuse, Arianna, bdsm, control, Dominants, Master, Rules, SADOMASOCHISM, slave, Submission, submissive with tags , , , , , , , , , , , , , , on December 4, 2014 by thekinkyworldofvile

From Wikipedia, the free encyclopedia

The term BDSM dates back to 1969; however, the origin of the term BDSM is unclear and is believed to have been formed either from joining the term B&D (bondage and discipline) with S&M (sadomasochism or sadism and
masochism)

You know everyday a young slave or submissive opens that door, looking and searching for something but she is not sure what it is.

The truth is they will do very little research and will grow to depend on one voice and one voice only.
That voice will do one or two things. One it will give her something great she has never imagined or two it will destroy her life for a long time or maybe permanently. Who care right ? Who really gives a fuck what happens to someone else? After all their life does not effect us in anyway.

We all write about fun and games, we all right about spreading for our owner, sucking cock or maybe a little anal training, or how much you love humiliating someone. The list of topics just goes on and on.

While I may not be politically correct in my way of thinking or speaking, that does give me a great advantage because I can be me, I can be who I am without faking anything.

I write about my life , present , past and sometimes the future. I write about how I live my life in a 27/7 M’s relationship. I write about how important communication is, how structure is important and how to put much of it into play.

One thing you rarely hear me talk about however is my sex life. I do not discuss that because of the respect I have for Arianna. I do that because of the love I have for Arianna. I do that because of the security for Arianna.

I do talk about kink mostly past relationships and maybe sometimes I cross lines but again I am me. I am not here to please someone , or make someone think something that is not true.

What I write is about me , and if you were to meet me in person I would be the same.

We are not all going to agree on everything but we should give others respect no matter what I believe or what someone else believes.

I recently came across Master Michael’s blog

http://ourmasterslavejourney.info/

While we do not agree on certain topics he does have an awesome blog and you can see the love he has for his.
I love to see blogs that has so much empowerment and so much information soothers can read and learn and grow.

His blog is one of the few I have come across that actually speaks about relationships and keeping it going , and even the struggles.
Cudos.

Don’t get me wrong kink is good , sex is good , and there is nothing better in my world than a slow blow job.

I consider myself very lucky today one I have Arianna and the second I am a live and well and disease free , Wow am I lucky !!!!!!!

To date I cannot tell you how many women I have been with , The truth is I lost count some 15 or 20 years ago.
25 different states , Thailand , Korea , The Philippines , Japan, Vietnam , Germany yea Gretchen. England , the Dominican republic and probably a few I do not remember. Those were the days when I was trying to smoke all the weed up in the world.
While stationed in Korea there were two things to do for an American in the US Army. Drink and fuck that was it. Most of the time I did not even know there name nor did I want to.

Believe me it is nothing to be proud of , and for the most I feel pretty bad, and this brings up the whole purpose of my blog , well some of the main factors.

The good news is we all grow up or we are suppose to , that is the plan our parents have for us when we come sliding down the chute, the cold air hits us and some stranger smacks our ass.

Many do not grow up and they pay the consequences in the end. Our life is based on two things , Choices and Consequences.

I enjoy learning about others , their life , watching them grow , it is unfortunate we have tragedies sometimes and we lose good people.

We all think different , we also want different things out of life. We want different things when it comes to a partner , and we have different needs.
So we find the one who fills all of those voids, we find the one who has the level of submission we are seeking. We find the one who wants to adapt to our way and only our way.
If you pick the wrong partner the adaption process will never happen and you will part hating each other , not to mention the time you have wasted, and you will never get back.

You have to sit down and put a plan together on paper, and believe me you will make a thousand changes, but in the end you need to stick to your plan and stand firm, that is for the Dominant , the slaves and those who are submissive, because if you do not have a plan you will get screwed , you will get fucked and it will be no ones fault except yours.

Then you want to come crying and telling your story about how you were abused or mistreated, you were beaten, the relationship was all wrong, but you already knew that going into it.
You saw all the warning signs , but you ignored them and you took your plan and you wadded it up and threw it in the trash , and you allowed yourself to be treated like a bitch instead of a partner.
Once you agreed to enter the relationship you gave him permission to do what ever he wanted to.

I am not a very sympathetic man because most of our problems are self inflicting. Most of our problems can be solved before they even become problems.
The problem is most want an easy way out and there is not one, so we tend to sweep things under the carpet hoping it will not resurface.
It does come back into play and by that time is has grown way out of control.

One problem I have noticed is the Novice Dominants who have sprouted since the 50 shades of Grey , but it did start mostly with the internet boom.
At times I do receive emails from new Dominants. Hey Vile I am new to the lifestyle and I have some questions I would like to ask you would that be okay ?
Sure I would be more than happy to answer any question you may have.
That is the end of the conversation, I never hear back, and I know that when I answer the email.
So either he is no longer interested or he has read the 50 shades of grey and he now knows everything.

What you Doms or Daddy’s new Masters what ever you call yourself don’t understand is you can have anything you want out of a partner.
You can have the world at your feet and a partner who will serve you without question. A partner who will stand by you without question.

All you have to do is stop the games you play , it is simple math and I am talking 1+1 math, no algebra.
You have to be yourself and you have to be honest. You have to be who and what you are.
Your Consistency will grow her submission, you caring will grow her submission. You communication will grow her submission.

People do not believe me when I tell them Arianna and I have never had an argument, but that is the truth and it is not because she is not allowed to speak up because she is. She is allowed to voice her opinion , I want that out of her, but it is our communication that prevents the arguments.
We talk and we talk about anything and everything , Arianna knows she can come to me and speak her mind without fear.

We all love the kink, we all love sex , and we all love getting what we want and when we want, but with those thoughts you have to have certain principles in place, logic if you will , because you should want to travel a road that has no abuse.

When meeting a new Dominant the second you have second thoughts or the feeling something may not be right , you should then excuse yourself and go home. Your first thoughts are 90% right most of the time…..

Many of you confuse the difference between a submissive and slave and many even the Baby Girl role in the lifestyle.

Who carry titles but most act as if they are slaves , many having the fear of asking questions or even saying no.
If you are not capable of those two things you are in the wrong relationship because it should not be based on fear..
Fear is a terrible mind fuck , and it will drive you crazy…

Being mind fucked during play is much different than being mind fucked on a daily basis and you not knowing it.

Those of you trying to make a fresh start should do research months of research. You need to talk to others , and I mean others who are in stable relationships.
I am not talking about those who have online Dominants or those in LDR , they cannot help you in anyway.

There are tons of sites out there to help guide you and give you answers.
One I like is Best Slave Training… http://bestslavetraining.com/

There is a ton of useful information…

In the end your safety is the most important , your care is most important. More important your mind and mental state is important..

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Vile

http://ourmasterslavejourney.info/

Depression And BDSM

Posted in @vile62 on Twitter, A Submissive's Home, abuse, Acceptance, anal sex, anger, Anger Issues, Argue, Arianna, ass fucking, bdsm, Bipolar, codependent, Commit, commitment, communication, compatibility, Consensual, Consistency, consistent, control, Depressed, Depression, Dominant, Dominants, Dominants who suffer from depression, Master, slave, submissive with tags , , , , , , , , , , , , , on December 1, 2014 by thekinkyworldofvile

You know I have been down and out in my life. I have hit rock bottom and crawled back up dusted myself off and hit the trail , not really worrying about where I was going , but making sure I did not repeat the same mistakes.
By the grace of who ever I have never been homeless, I have always managed to stay a float.

I remember i was 13 I am guessing , and when I woke up a bright light was shinning in my eyes. It was the police , and my parents had been in a huge fight , a fight that got pretty physical.
So my brother and I were taking to a foster home and we were there for about a week before being allowed to go home.

This was not something that was unusual , as a matter of fact it happened pretty often.

Although I was popular in school , some of the kids started talking about me because I had been wearing the same pair of pants for half of the year. I knew something had to be done.

We had a small restaurant across the street so I went and talked to the owner about washing dishes.
At 13 I worked from 3.30 pm until roughly 10pm on the weekends 11pm. Yup I was making 2.35 an hour.
The funny thing was it took almost a month for my parents to even know I was missing at night, and once they found out they wanted a cut.
Yea I am thinking not. I did however pay the power bill to get the lights turned back on, we had gone most of the winter without heat or hot water.

So in about two months my closet was full again, jeans , shirts dingo boots , yea I was pretty well set.

At the age of 15 I went to work at the local cotton mill, and I went from 2.35 an hour to 4.25 union wages ha ha ha.
On top of that I still continued to go to school and I made 170 bucks a week , and I had a plan it was just putting everything into place.
At the cotton mill I ran a huge denim sewing machine, it was about 15 feet wide and as long and when it was threaded it had 800 single threads making one huge white sheet of denim before being dyed. It was a total bitch if a thread popped.

At 15 I knew I was changing I had started dating and this is when the rough sex came into play.
I had read most of the smut books my dad had bought from local truck stops and they are all pretty violent. Girls gagging on 14 inch cocks being fucked up the ass, just all about humiliation. Okay so I thought we this must be the norm although I did not have a 14 inch cock.
As you guess I did not date to much, my pickens were far and few between, well I had Beverly but so did everyone else then a girl named shannon. I had a different level of respect for her so she was treated different than Beverly.

Then I turned 17 and a Army recruiter came to out high school one day and I was in.
My plan was coming together , I made the appointment took all the test , brought home the paper work and after dinner one night I told my parents I had to take summer school and I had some forms they had to sign to approve it.
Bam 2 signatures and I was ready to go. I was now in the United States Army.

The 14th of October I turned 17 , while upstairs packing my dad walked in and asked me what I was doing.

I said you know , its been nice , well not really but I am out of here, I just cannot live like you two do any longer. So it is time for me to say goodbye I hope things get better.
The shit hit the fan, well it to late you and mom already signed the paper work I am leaving today and Ill be at Fort Dix New Jersey tomorrow.
If you take one step towards me it will be the first time in your life a 17 year old beat your ass , now back the fuck off.

Well at the hotel downtown Atlanta I was told I was put on hold because I was 4 pounds under weight, fucking go figure. So for three days the army stuffed me with food.
Then on my way via train , and I had no idea what I was about to walk into.

I had started smoking pot around the age of 15 , that is before the scales got fucked up in the mid 80’s. I was living the dream , well what I thought was the dream. I tried to smoke all the weed in the world but I could never catch up.
The kicker was I managed to work and go to school. Although I knew a lot of people I had very few friends , that was mainly due to not trusting anyone.
You can learn so much from just watching and listening to your parents. It made me wonder why two people who seemed to hate each other so much would stay married.

I started people watching as a teen and I would just observe , and listen , wondering if their home life was as fucked up as mine. Little did I know this would help me read people.

Once out of the Army that is where my life really started to get out of control.
I was still smoking pot , my drinking was out of control and I was taking pills. You could hand me anything and I would take. I did not care what it was , I just wanted to get high.

My first job out of the Army was making parachutes for sky diving teams. The pay was awesome but my work ethics were not. That job was short lived. Missing work and the quality of my production.

The next year I jumper from minimum wage job to minimum wage job , trying to make ends meet.
Fired once again and now nearly homeless because I knew no one , I decided to head to Florida.

1989 I loaded my 1967 cougar GT and headed to Florida. Once in a hotel reading the local paper a job caught my eye. Maintenance engineer wanted industrial laundry , hmm now that sounds interesting.
So I spent the next few days putting my fake resume together. Instead of Air Defense in the Army , I was now an electrical Engineer who had worked at power plants.
I went to the interview, got the job and I gave a starting date of about three weeks later.

I spent the next three weeks getting cleaned up. I stopped drinking , no more pills , and no more weed dammit.
Standing on the beach at sunrise I came to the conclusion there has to come a time when you have to grow up. I was no longer 17 and I wanted more, and I knew there was more out of life than just getting fucked up.

A week into my new job the head engineer called me in the office , as I sat down he said you little lying fucker. All I could do is just sit there.
He looked at my resume and asked me if there was anything on the paper that was true, and my reply was my name and address.
I was thinking well here it comes but he said look I like you and I am going to keep you on but you will have to show you want to stay here and learn.
Three years later I was transferred to collegedale Tennessee as the head engineer of a industrial laundry facility. The only bad part was the facility sat right on a seventh day Adventist college. How fucked up can that be ?

I had never had so much pussy in my life , I was banging someone different every week.
Then came the day I was called in the office and I was questioned about my sexual activity which was really none of their business well besides being employees.

So shortly after I left and back to florida Back to daytona, still working for the same company but moved into a tracker trailer position, yup they sent me to truck driving school.

It did not take me long to realize I was against any type of manual labor, and my driving career was very short lived.

News paper add read Call Center Manager for major financial institution, hmm interesting. This meant new resume and a better one.

Us Army Director of Communications Ft Ord California , who were they going to call The base had been shut down, so I moved right into my office with about 350 employes under me. By this time the internet was alive and I spent hours researching my newly found job and spent the next 5 years there until the closing of the center.

The moral of the story above you can do anything. Just as Sir Richard Branson said , if your asked if you can do something , you always say yes then you learn how to do it.

Now on to Depression. I am not a medical Doctor nor am I am shrink , although I do believe many Dominants would make better shrinks. One thing we do well and very well is listen.

We not only listen we communicate very well , be it with our partner or out in the general public. As Dominants we tend to be in control more , not only with our emotions but our thoughts our anger, our surroundings.

We tend to be more in control , we love structure we love putting plans together. We love challenges, we love our minds being put through the test. I myself I crave solving problems, but like most Dominants we solve problems before they become a problem.
Putting something off becomes a problem so we or I handle things before hand.
I love being told I cant do something, I love being told something is impossible to do.

As Dominants we provide a stable environment, as Dominants we provide stability. As Dominants we provide structure, As Dominants we provide Love and communication. As Dominants we provide rules that will help structure ones life so our property may grow and continue to grow. As a Dominant we provide positive reinforcement. As a Dominant we provide advice and we solve problems.

Our role is just not in the bedroom, our role is not just about kink, our role is just not about punishing.
Our role as a Dominant is to lead and we have to earn enough respect so you will want to follow.

The CDC says An Estimated 1 in 10 U.S. Adults Report Depression.
I myself believe that number is probably twice if not three times higher,
the one in ten are those that are reported. I am sure there are many more that do not go report and people just live with suffering on a daily basis..

Okay so this is where some controversy is going to come into play and I am not trying to offend anyone here, and again this is just my opinion and I am basing my opinion on about 22 or 23 years in the lifestyle.

There are many who are submissive and slave who suffer from depression and other medical issues such as bi-polar , anxiety , it goes on and on, and most are on medications.
I did not say every submissive or slave so do not go putting words in my mouth, I said there are many.

The above is looking for everything I described above , the structure , security , the freedom of open communication , stability you get the picture.

If your Dominant suffers from any of the illnesses I mentioned , you are doing more harm to him than good. He has enough on his shoulders keeping his life straight without having to keep someone else in check.

As a Master who is Married to my Slave I now have two to look out for not just one. I make all of the decisions so what ever I decide effects both of us not just me.

A Dominant has to have the ability to think clear and be able to stay on a level emotional playing field.
Many Dominants who suffer from depression have a very low self esteem as with the novice Dominant I spoke about the other day.

The blog was I wish I was A Better Dominant.

Now if your in the relationship just for the kink, the sex and being spanked hey have at it, but a Dominant who suffers from depression can in noway provide a stable home with structure.

I have never at one time stated, Oh I wish I could be a better Dominant , I wish I was who you need. Those words have never come out of my mouth and they never will.

Adding that type of pressure to someone who has such an illness , is setting someone up for failure.

I am held accountable for my actions and I will admit my wrong doings. EH when and if it ever happens.
I am not cocky , I am no arrogant , I am not stuck on myself , I am confident.

If your looking to enter a D’s or M’s relationship and your looking for a Dominant that is one of the first questions you need to ask.
Do you suffer from any type of depression ? Do you have anger Issues ? Do you have drug or alcohol issues ?

If you the submissive or slave feels uncomfortable asking any of the above then you are not ready for a relationship.

If you suffer from any form of depression and your Dominant suffers from depression , how does that work ?

Those who do suffer from depression or even bi-polar you are not broken you just need a Dominant who has true patience. You need someone who is willing to dedicate enough time to allow you to grow.
You need someone who is going to understand your ups and downs. You need someone who is there to communicate with you , but knows when you need space.
Your in need of guidance and compassion , someone who understands you. More so someone who understands your limits, the train of thought pushing you over that edge.

Arianna had a break down right after we had met , but I knew if I invested time and I stuck with her through her bad times in the end it would pay off and today I am standing on top of the world.
I found Arianna a new doctor , a full change of meds and I go to her appointments with her and I speak up because I know she will not.

I have a very structured home, and to date we have not had an argument and that is due to our communication.

You need to change your game , before we would give someone three strikes and I see three strikes as being to many chances.

If you let someone run over you once they will do it again and again. If you let someone abuse you be it physical , mental or verbal they will do it again and again and again.

The new Dominant should be asking questions as well, your health , mental and physical. He should want to know everything about you inside and out.

In many cases sucking cock comes up first, do you take it up the ass ? Are you Bi ? Then you know your best interest is not in mind.

Depression effect people in different ways , but you all get those highs and lows, understanding you makes a huge difference.

You should want not only the world but everything on it.

You can be happy with depression in any relationship if you are in caring hands.

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Vile

12/1/2014 Depression And DSM

Posted in abuse, bdsm, control, Depressed, Depression, Dominants, Master, slave, submissive with tags , , , , on November 30, 2014 by thekinkyworldofvile

I started this post a couple of days ago.

I am going to share some pretty  deep things about  me and my life growing up.

I’m going to share how I lost everything and fought back.

Life is not  easy but  in many ways we create our own path , we control  our own path , we create our own problems but we can eliminate them as well.

We clearly choose our path in life our own destiny.

We have so much control but we as humans are always looking for the easy way out.

Life is not difficult , we make it difficult,  we create  problems and expect  others to clean up our mess.

Those of you who suffer from depression your not broken, your in need of a little  guidance and a lot of love.  There are those who need someone in control and there is nothing wrong with that.

The key is being with someone  who truly cares about you and wants to see you grow.

My life as a kid was not easy. I grew up in a very broken home. I grew up in a very abusive  home.

It is okay if you make mistakes,  mistakes  make you grow. It is up to you not to make the same mistakes over and over.

Man on top of mountain.

Vile

I wish I Was A Better Dominant

Posted in @vile62 on Twitter, abuse, anger, Anger Issues, Bad Dominant, Bad Reltionships, bdsm, cock sucking, codependent, Commit, commitment, communication, compatibility, consequences, control, Daddy Dom, Dominance, Dominant, Dominants, emotional, Master, slave, Structure, Submission, submissive, The Novice Dominant, The World Of BDSM, Train your slave with tags , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , on November 27, 2014 by thekinkyworldofvile

I am sure many of you have heard these words or similar. I wish I was a better Daddy , I wish I was a better Master , or Dominant.

These words come from a novice who has bitten off more than he can chew. He has stepped out of the frying pan into the fire.

A middle aged man waking up one morning after finding ALT.com or some other BDSM site, now he wants to step into that relationship really knowing nothing about the lifestyle. He now wants to control someone , impose rules , look for reasons to punish, yell and bark orders , make demands you are not sure you can do , or possibly get into trouble.
He now wants to isolate you, keep you from family and friends.

The novice has been in the lifestyle now for 10 years or this is what he is telling you. He has trained many , and the relationship has failed because they lied to him, they were not real , they were fakes.

Your needy and he is greedy sounds familiar yes? He takes and takes and you give and give, but you get nothing in return.

A novice a week into the lifestyle is not the Grand Master of Masters , the Lord the Grand Pooba.

On your knees bitch suck your Masters cock, I will train you just keep sucking. I own you, and you have only known each other for a couple of hours.

This is the Dominant you can tell nothing because he knows everything. This is the Dominant when the relationship falls apart it is your fault , you did it, you were not true , how dare you lie about your submission.

You know a couple of months ago I tried giving someone advice and he laughed at me.
He then sent me a friend request on Facebook , so I excepted. A month went by and nothing not a word so I then deleted him.
Then out of the blue I get a Message saying let me know when you can talk, as in making some kind demand , like he was making time for me. He is now blocked.

The novice is like a leach it will suck the blood out of you until you pick it off and throw it away.

I am far from perfect , I have and would never claim I know all. What I know has taking me years to learn not months or weeks but years.

He wants his cock sucked but the minute you become needy or he finds out your codependent he wants no part of you.
You need to grow up , your acting childish , I am not going to put up with your games , that is right your now a game , and in the end the break up is your fault and your fault only.

If the Dominant cannot control his own life , his own problems , his own drama , how in the fuck is he going to help or control you. If his life is a complete fucking mess , you have to think what can he bring to the table to help me ?

The novice Dominant will lose their temper at the drop of a hat. You are now the stupid bitch , your a cunt , your making his life so fucking miserable. He cannot train you because your a fake your not real. He will scream and scream then he will come crawling back with his tail between his legs begging you to take him back.

I wish I was a better Dominant , I wish I was a better Master or Daddy , these are the words of a novice and a idiot. He has stepped into someones shoes and they do not fit.

You the submissive in the end are the one in charge , you are running the relationship and you are faking your submission.

All you have to do is think.

fight

Vile